Ready for....

...... BaMa football!!!!
RTR!!!

...and the journey continues

Well we had our consult with Dr Long (infertility dr.) this past monday....and the news was actually very promising!! I had already prepared myself for the worst!! I just knew that we were gonna be told to move on to IVF (and that isnt an option for us due to the $$) Chad and I had already talked and talked about it and knew if that was to be the next step then we knew that this would be the end of our fertility treatments... well Dr. Long started off with of course the results werent great by any means but there had been some new studies out and he felt that we still had optimal chances of becoming pregnant with me doing injections/IUI. When he said that I know I was grinning from ear to ear and immediately my eyes filled with tears. God is just so GOOD. I knew in my heart there was still hope!!! I know your thinking well this still doesnt mean its gonna happen... NO, it doesnt but it does mean we still have options and Dr Long was very positive about it!! Well it just so happened I was at the beginning of my cycle so why not go ahead and start the shots now...so I went in very nervous and anxious at the bottom of the roller coaster, then after talking with Dr. Long, all the way to the top I went!!! I needed to have baseline ultrasound and bloodwork first. Ultrasound done and the nurses response was "OH No"...im thinking WHAT!!!! She said you have a cyst on your ovary the size of TEXAS!! Im thinking REALLY?!?!!? So that in turn meant no shots/IUI this month in fact Im now on birth control pills to help decrease that cyst. Im prayerfully hoping that sucker will be gone by the end of this cycle and we can get on with it. So needless to say I went right back down that roller coaster. Infertility is SO.SO.SO emotional and full of highs and lows. I try not to get my hopes up but its just impossible!!! The past few days Ive been very positive and just feel like God is gonna bless us, i just know it!! I have to keep that faith. Its been about 3 years now and it would be real easy to just give up!! Especially since I do have Sam!! God bleSSed me tremendously with Sam and I just know he can and will do it again. Its in his time I know. He has tested my faith and continues too and this has made me stronger!! I just continue to remind myself of this verse and its very comforting!!

The Lord is near. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, shall guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. ~Philippians 4:4-9

Also it couldnt be at a more perfect time that I have started a new bible study with a great group of girls recently and God knew.... WoW!! did he know how much I needed it and these girls to share with and grow closer with. I had previously started this same study back in the beginning of the summer and it was just at a bad time for me... but God meant for me to finish this study when just a few months down the road I was asked to join in on this same study again. I cant wait to see what it is that God wants to tell me. Cant wait!!!

I thank all of you who have read and continued to follow this journey we are on. I thank you most for the prayers and the comforting and encouraging words you have always offered.
Stay tuned as we continue along to see what God has in store.......

Waiting

UPDATE: No good news :( have a consult with Dr. Long soon... i know it will be to discuss our options. unfortuantely i think i already know those options and it doesnt look good. thanks for your prayers. this is so hard, we want another child so bad and its so hard to explain to sam why he cant have a brother/sister......


The Lord is near. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, shall guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. ~Philippians 4:4-9

Its noon and I have not done a SINGLE thing today!!! but watch the clock and wait on the phone to ring. At this point Im still waiting.... You can read this last post to get you up to date on where we are at...& then fast forward to today. Another appointment with the infertility Dr. and another recheck... these results will answer alot of questions for us! Are we done trying or is there reason to keep going??? If the results are good we have decided to go with 2-3 more cycles of fertility shots and IUI's. This will be our last go around of it. I am anxiously awaiting some positive results today. I.AM.NOT.READY.TO.QUIT.YET! All this time no matter what the odds have been. Ive never given up on God. I know he can make all the "impossibles" POSSIBLE!!
I still have faith that he can make it happen!

Staying Busy...

I sure have been missing my little side kick this week!!! Its just been a big adjustment for me that he's gone all day... I know its only 2 1/2 more hours than what he's been doing but it seems like forevah!!! So this week I have tryed to keep busy and do things around here that desperately need to be done!! Yesterday it was to tackle Sam's playroom!!! and as you will see by the pics it was an absolute disaster!! I really dont usually let it get to this point... really, i dont!But we were so busy this summer and it just got so far out of hand and past the point that I even wanted Sam to attempt to clean it up! Plus I thought I was ready to purge some of the toys in there that he never plays with anymore...

Looks bad huh?? I got in there and spent all morning... got rid of the air hockey table and brought down his old train table for him to use for his legos. I really didnt get rid of alot, i just couldnt do it, yet :(

So these are the after pics, lookin alot better now!!!
Today I will try to tackle my closet and thats gonna be an even bigger task than yesterday! Wish me luck!

S.A.R.

Samuel Austin Reed

things that you love:

• God (and for that I am so thankful)


• anything and i do mean anything STAR WARS


• Sports.Sports.Sports. at the moment it is baseball but lately I have heard you humming the BAMA fight song, so soon it will be all about football!


• legos


• playing your DSi


• you love your daddy but i think you love me lots too :)


• Snacks


• the beach (i've never seen a little boy love it so much)


• you still and think you always will love your "lamby"


• books and learning to read


• going back to school (me not so much but SO glad you LOVE it)


• being with your friends


• pizza, krispy kreme donuts, cookies & creme milkshakes, strawberries


• you are just "in LOVE" with the fact that you are a "luncher" at school this year


• snuggling up in daddy & mommy's bed (anytime of the day, especially when you get home from school to rest a little and at night to watch the Braves play baseball)


• The Atlanta Braves!! Brian McCann


• you would LOVE to have a baby brother or sister (you talk about it still ALL the time and I so hope that prayer of yours and ours comes true someday soon)

you like:

• a little girl Ali in your class... you talk about her all the time and you havent told me she is your "girlfriend" (thank goodness) but your granny sue asked about your class and that is how you classified Ali to her..

things you do not love:

• being "bored"


• being alone


• getting ready for bed.... you are the best staller there ever was and can find more things to talk about to distract bed time


• mexican food, i try my hardest to make you like it but you just dont and this one really bothers me :(


• to lose

Sam, words I use to describe you:

• sunshine


• cheerful (your character award in kindergarten)


• VERY outgoing


• loving


• caring


• competitive!


• eager


• handsome


• Energetic (i mean full of energy!!)


• Smart


• Super fast


• becoming strong in your faith
• friendly

words to describe how i feel about you:

• thankful


• blessed beyond words


• proud


• Love.Love.Love.


• and more Love!


• amazed


• happy to be your mom

I love you bud! and I continue to realize with each and every passing day how truly bleSSed i am to be your mom!! God made you for me and daddy and how Amazingly Awesome is that!! I had the BEST summer with you and am missing you now that you are off to First Grade and gone all day!!

I love you forever, like you for always, as long as i'm living my baby you'll be!

The LORD bless you
and keep you;
the LORD make his face shine upon you
and be gracious to you;
the LORD turn his face toward you
and give you peace.

Numbers 6:24-26

Love you~Mom

~First day of First Grade~

Well it is here already!! My baby is at his first day of first grade. I know you must get tired of hearing me say, "its going by so fast" but it truly is and if you are a mother you know exactly.

This summer we stayed SO busy that I think it was even faster!! Hate so much to see the summer come to an end, we had an AWESOME time!! Couple weeks ago we had one last big hurrah and went on a business trip with Chad to Dothan, Al for a few days and with being that close to the beach who wouldnt make another beach vacation out of it?!?! So 6 days total and it was wonderful!! We went on down to Panama City Beach from Dothan and had a great time!!

When we got back it was time for school supplies shopping and a few more fun days and here we are today!! Back to school ;( Sam is attending Bethlehem Christian Academy again this year and I am SO excited about his new teacher and his school year, just wish it could go a little slower!!

Sam was more than ready to head back, he loves school, and that makes it so much easier and me happy!! I on the other hand did shed a few tears!! His first year to go to school all day, WOW what will I do with myself?!?! Thats another post in itself right there!!

So up and at em bright and early today!! Alarm clock was buzzing for Sam at 6:30 after sleeping till 9:30 or 10 all summer. I awoke and said really??? this day is already here??? Sam is most excited about being what he calls a "luncher" this year!! eating lunch at school with your friends that must be the best.... atleast he thinks so!! I thought having lunch home with me was the best, sure am gonna miss that little turkey =)

Hope you have a wonderful first grade year buddy, i love you, and cant wait to see all that you will learn this year!! you always make me so proud =)

Girl Time

Every girl needs a girl's night out every now and then and thats just what we did !!! Cantina Laredo at Bridge Street was just the right spot!
A few of us just started out reading each others blogs and have been for maybe 2 years now... I'd say it was about time we all get together ;) I had already met everyone except Sarah.
So it was great to finally meet her and have some good girl time just visiting with everyone. Just catching up on what everyone has been up to this summer, of course chatting about our kiddos and the crazy things they do, and figuring out all the same friends we have in common( its such a small world) Kera and I have known each other since about the 5th grade, even used to spend the night together some, lost touch over the years, and now our blogs brought us back in touch. It was a GREAT night with some yummy food (loved the salad Joy) I had a blast and cant wait to do it again REAL soon!! SO thankful for all of my blogging friends God has brought me in touch with, I know you are always there to listen and to offer an encouraging word or advice!!
Joy, Kera, Sarah, Beth... had a GREAT time! Missed you Amy!! Brooke, & Ginny missed and was looking forwad to meeting you... we will definitely do it again!!

thanks for the pic beth