The Lord is near. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, shall guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. ~Philippians 4:4-9

Our family is a circle of strength and love, with every birth and every union, the circle will grow, every joy shared adds more love, every crisis faced together, makes the circle stronger
- author unknown

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

National Infertility Awareness Week....Our Story

This week is National Infertility Awareness Week. It is a movement to raise awareness about the disease of infertility which effects 7.3 million americans. Infertility is something that has been a part of my life for quite some time now. We struggled to become pregnant for for quite some time before we were finally blessed with Sam. Becoming pregnant for me is just so "unnatural", with Sam it was fertility injections, ultrasounds after ultrasounds, blood work and more blood work, and intrauterine insemination. Finally it worked!! God blessed us with the BIGGEST and GREATEST blessing EVER and to him I am and always will be so VERY thankful!! I didnt care really how "unnatural" it was... all I knew is I was to be a mother!!

For this child we prayed and God has granted our request ~ Samuel 1:27
Thank you Lord for my Sam!!

I really cant explain how wonderful it has been and my heart truly breaks for those who have never been able to experience that. I have a best friend... we've been friends since around the 7th grade and she and her husband have never been able to experience that and they wont ever birth a child of their own. They are in the process now of adoption and I pray some day very soon their dreams will come true!! Anyways back to our story, after Sam turned 3, we decided we were ready to try and go down that road again. We knew what my condition was (PCOS, polycystic ovarian disease) and knew the infertility doctors had figured out how to treat me and achieve pregnancy and just maybe this time would be easier for us.... well that hasnt been the case!! at all =( With PCOS, basically my body is insulin resistant and causes me not to ovulate. There are many things that can effect it and for me one of them is my diet. As we were trying again, my Dr recommended a certain medication that would help with the insulin resistance and of course a strict diet, basically no carbs =( I did this, and it was easy, I was motivated!! I lost 40 lbs, and with taking my meds, I actually started ovulating ON MY OWN, whoo hoo!! Maybe I would get pregnant on my own???!!! without any help at all this time. Well after about a year of that, it still wasnt happening, so back to Birmingham to ART... Dr Long was wonderful!! His thinking was we will just treat you the same as we did with Sam, it worked so why not try it again? He was very hopeful and positive!! and I was too! Can I say what a letdown that was.

After all those treatments and not to mention the $$$ still no pregnancy!! So this time we needed to recheck Chad and I both, just make sure there wasnt any new reasons as to why all of this wasnt working... this time a new problem arose.... with Chad. COMPLETELY UNEXPECTED and UNEXPLAINABLE..... when he was checked out before Sam EVERYTHING WAS COMPLETELY ABOVE NORMAL now his results were horrible, and after being checked out there wasnt any reason for the diagnosis, there was no apparent reason the Doctors could find that would cause this problem for him. So, now what do we do?? Well the next recommendation from Dr. Long was we needed InVitro and the chances of that working werent even that great..... First of all we DONT have $10,000 or more for this procedure and there not even be a guarantee that it will work!! Needless to say that was back in November of 2009 when we last talked to Dr. Long. Here we are today and Chad and I barely even talk about it, we just cant..... I think about it almost every day!! I have gained all 40lbs back.... and think I really am a little on the depressed side. I try to think Im not, that its normal to have good and bad days... I just always have in the back of my mind that maybe just maybe......

Last week I went in for my yearly exam... my nurse practitioner told me not to give up.... that it wouldnt hurt to just recheck Chad again since its been almost 6 months, that maybe just maybe, his results would change back to normal just as fast as they changed to abnormal!! and to definitely get back on my diet not just for fertility reasons but for health reasons too! So thats where we are..... I havent talked about it on my blog much in a while, I just felt like it was getting to be like a broken record and all of you were probably getting tired of hearing it over and over. Chad will be getting rechecked in the next week or so. Please pray for improvement for him....

I know that some of you that read are currently in this same struggle. We all have dreams, wishes, and plans for our future and that if we plan them that they will happen. Its not always in our timing. Its God's plans and his timing!! I pray God will soon bless you, never give up, rely on your faith, and he will see you through...

As far as the NIAW, if any of you are suffering from infertility check out the website....

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Is it already time?!?!

Kindergarten started in the month of September,
That first day of school we will always remember.

It was hard to leave our homes, our families and toys,
But we found a happy place full of friendly girls and boys.

Our days were filled with ABC's, building blocks and 123's.
We learned to read, we learned to write,
Working so hard to get everything right!

Together we celebrated the seasons of the year,
We comforted each other when someone shed a tear.
We celebrated losing teeth, birthdays and making friends,
Now we celebrate that the years about to end.

Because...we are moving up! We are going to first grade!
We got here because of all the progress that we've made.

We'll never forget our teachers and all that they have done,
For making our first year at school comforting and fun.

So wish us luck on this day as we graduate,
The class of 2010 is ready to celebrate!

I am SO SAD!!! Someone please tell me where has the time gone?!?!

Friday, April 16, 2010

Thursday, April 15, 2010

10 years today... REALLY?!?! where has the time gone?!?!

(i know this isnt the best quality of picture but i didnt want to take any out of my album so this one had to work =)

Can not believe we are celebrating our 10 year wedding anniversary today..... where has the time gone?!?!? We have been together a total of 16 years counting our years we dated!! It doesnt seem possible!! But it has been GREAT! I am so thankful that God blessed me with the greatest, caring, loving, sharing husband, he truly is my BeSt FrIeNd and gotta say the best daddy ever too! We have been through our share of ups and downs and he has been there for me through them all!! I love you Chad cant wait to see what the next 10 years have in store for us!!

Monday, April 5, 2010

~Easter 2010~

We had a WONDERFUL Easter!! Hope all of you did as well =)
Sam really took in the meaning of Easter this year. We've always talked to him about it and read to him the true meaning of Easter, but this was the year that it "clicked" for lack of a better word and he just amazed me talking about it. I am so thankful and blessed with Sam being able to go to Bethlehem Christian Academy, so thankful for his teachers and Mrs. Suzy who teaches their chapel time, where he was able to learn about what the meaning of Easter all week at school. When Sam went to bed Thurs. night, he reminded me that tomorrow being Good Friday was the day that Jesus died on the cross for our sins and that when he woke up Friday morning he needed to look up to the sun an thank God for his son Jesus that died for all of us. He then went on to tell me and Chad the whole story of what happend to Jesus that day and how he rose again on the third day. It was amazing, he didnt leave out any details at all. So, sure enough, when he woke up Friday morning that was the first thing he did, was go over to his window, look up to the sun, and thanked God. What a blessing!! Thank you God, for your son, Jesus and what he did for us!! and thank you God, for my precious son!!

On to Saturday, it was a busy day!! Birthday party for one of Sam's best friends and then home to color some easter eggs, and later that night we went to Bethlehem Baptist Church's production of "Pierced" All I can say is it was AMAZING. Thank you, Thank you , Thank you Jesus!

Sunday we were up and at em EaRlY!! We went to Easter sunrise service at 6 am. It was such a blessing and I'm so glad we went. We really debated about getting Sam up so early seeing that we would have such a busy day. He did great and was fine with waiting until we got home to see what the Easter bunny had left him =) After getting home and of course a photo session =) and checking out the Easter basket. I had some cooking to do and then we were off again...... It was a great lunch with family at my Aunts house. Sam hunted eggs and threw the football with his favorite cousin Wes. Sam is the only little one in the family so he get ALL the attention!!

We ended the day by spending it with some great friends. Sam got to fish in their pond and he caught one!! WoW, did that ever make his day=)
It was a GREAT day that the Lord hath made. Beautiful sunshiney Easter day. Thank you again Jesus, I just cant say it enough...... Hope all of you had a Blessed Easter!!

time to color eggs

the easter bunny came

time for some pictures after we got home from sunrise service

sam actually took this, pretty good huh?

finally checking out what the easter bunny left

love these boys!

my nephew wes and sam =)

mawmaw with her great-grandsons

granny sue (my mom) with her boys

What a great way to end the beautiful day with friends. Sam catchin a fish just topped it off for him!