The Lord is near. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, shall guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. ~Philippians 4:4-9
Our family is a circle of strength and love, with every birth and every union, the circle will grow, every joy shared adds more love, every crisis faced together, makes the circle stronger
- author unknown
We had a great short family get away to Nashville this weekend to the Opryland Hotel. We dont usually go this early, but thought why not go ahead and we had a wonderful time. I needed a chance to get away, because we found out we arent pregnant this month and I had my hopes up so high, but I know that I have to keep the faith and it will happen in Gods time! Dr Rushing has increased my fertilty meds for this month, so you never know it could be a Christmas present, Im trying not to get my hopes up so high this time though! Anyways back to our weekend! Its so exciting to see the excitment in Sam's eyes this year, he loved all the beautiful Christmas lights, Santa wasnt there yet but I told him he would have plenty of chances to see Santa this year! They had a christmas band there, Rockabilly ? and Sam loved it, he was dancing around and singing all the fun Christmas songs! We had a wonderful time just getting in the Christmas spirit together as a family!
Sunday we spent the day at church, visiting with Maw Maw, grocery shopping, and then home to make the cutest turkey cupcakes for Sam's Thanksgiving party at school today. Arent they cute????, also some pics from his party today. Sam was so sweet when I got there, he said " hey everyone this is my mom"! "Mom will you sit beside me?" How sweet it broke my heart, Im sure it wont be long before he wont be saying that so I enjoyed it while I could! :) :)
I copied this poem from a blog site that I follow, she had it on her blog today,Im copying her idea :), but this poem is awesome and it really made me stop and think! http://raisingfutureesthers.blogspot.com/, it is a poem by Beth Moore, I had never read it but it definitely put things in perspective for me. How truely blessed I am, and how I must only trust in God to take care of everything, trust in his plan for me not "my plan". So at this time in my life where Chad and I are wanting another little one so bad, we must keep the faith and know our God will take care of us! I never "planned" to struggle with infertility but I know God has a a reason for it, Im very glad I have him and Ive chosen to follow his plan and not one of my own. Life is never as you see it but even during the times of doubt, struggles, and hardships I can truly see that God has always been there and he has never let me down. Examples in my life 1) Samuel 1:27 for this child we prayed and God has granted us our request , we prayed for our little Sam and what an answered prayer he was. 2) the death of my PawPaw, he was a daddy, a pawpaw and so much more, I always thought I would never make it in this world after he was gone, God used this time in my life to draw me back to him as I had drifted away, without God Im not sure how I would have dealt with the death of PawPaw I still miss him so much today, but have the reassurance that I will see him again one day! There are several things that happened to me after he passed that I know werent little coincidences, they happend because of God and Im so thankful! 3) the most important of all is the plan of salvation that God has given to me and all! All we have to do is believe and except and what a wonderful eternal plan he has for us! Im so thankful for being saved from my sins and my promise of eternity with him!
Enough about me and my plans, what about you, are you following a plan of your own or are you letting God be in control of his plans for you?
The Life I Planned from Things Pondered
Has someone seen the life I planned? It seems it's been misplaced I've looked in every corner It's lost without a trace. I've found one I don't recognize Things missing that were dear Promises I'd hoped to keep And dreams I'd dreamed aren't here. Faces I had planned to see Hands I planned to hold Now absent in the pictures Not the way I told. Has someone seen the life I planned? Did it get thrown away? God took my hand from searching Then I heard him say, "Child, your ears have never heard Your eyes have never seen Eternal plans I have for you Are more than you could dream. You long to walk by sight But, I'm teaching eyes to see I know what I am doing 'Til then you must believe." He's done so much, I felt ashamed To know He heard my moans To think I'd trade in all He's done For plans made on my own. I wept over His faithfulness And how He'd proved Himself How He'd gone beyond my dreams And said to Him myself, "No, my ears have never heard My eyes have never seen Eternal plans you have for me Are more than I could dream. Yes, I long to walk by sight But you're teaching eyes to see You know what You are doing 'Til then, I must believe." I felt His great compassion Mercy unrestrained He let me mourn my losses And showed to me my gains. I offered Him my future And released to Him my past I traded in my dreams For a plan He said would last. I get no glimpse ahead No certainties at all Except the presence of the ONE Who will not let me fall. Are you also searching For a life you planned yourself? Have you looked in every corner? Have you looked on every shelf? Child, your ears have never heard Your eyes have never seen Eternal plans He has for you Are more than you could dream. Perhaps you long to walk by faith But He's teaching eyes to see He knows what He is doing Child, step out and believe.
A blogger that I have been following for a while: http://our-journey-to-parenthood.blogspot.com/ are in the process of adopting their second child, they are in New Jersey where they have been for the past several days, the baby was born 72 hrs ago and at time to be released from the hospital from the first mother to the new family the first mother is having second thoughts! I can only imagine what an emotional roller coaster they are on right now, please say a prayer for them. They have been waiting for this baby for so long! CHECK OUT HER BLOG!!!
Update on our status........ I dont know if I should be happy or sad! My lab work from Sat. checking my progesterone was 10, now that is low but technically I did OVULATE (which is something I never do). When I first found out I was pregnant with Sam my progesterone was 7.5, so there is still hope. I just want to thank God that I actually ovulated that is a blessing in itself for me! Now I have to wait until this weekend to see if my period starts or not...... its a roller coaster ride! Im trying to have FAITH not FEAR! Please dear father bless us with a healthy pregnancy! I know its in your hands Lord, and your will be done. I thank you for all my blessings and all the ones that lie ahead! AMEN
I go for bloodwork tomorrow to check my progesterone, and this will be an indicator if the fertility med actually worked and if theres even a chance that I am prego, I wont know if I'm prego for about another 5-7 days, PLEASE everyone keep us in your prayers this would be an awesome gift from GOD and the best Thanksgiving blessing ever! Im keeping the FAITH! Thanks everyone ~Jenn
Veterans that are proud they served our country Sam waving to the soldiers Im so thankful for all these men and women that serve our country Daddy and Sam
What a great time we had at the Veteran's Day parade! Sam doesnt really understand the whole meaning of today even though we tried to explain it to him, but he loved seeing army soldiers and all the army eqiupment and especially all the fire trucks and their sirens. My Paw Paw was a World War II vet and seeing some of those older veterans today it brought tears to my eyes, just thinking about what they've been through in their lifetime and the sacrifice they made for me, my family, and everyone else in this country. I want to thank all the men and women, then and now, for all they've done for our wonderfull country and our freedom. God Bless You! Hope everyone has a blessed Veterans Day!
Update on our fertility treatment, my ultrasound looked good last week, like my ovaries had responded to the fertility meds, so I go for bloodwork this Sat. and should know if we are pregnant in about 10-12 days. This is all that I have on my mind right now, I want another little one so bad, Please continue to keep us in your prayers because only God can make this happen! ~Jennifer
I love the lyrics to this song by MercyMe, no matter what you go through in life, good or bad, God will bring you through it, and I have to remember to draw near to him in the tough times and never turn my back.......
I can count a million times People asking me how I Can praise You with all that I've gone through The question just amazes me Can circumstances possibly Change who I forever am in You Maybe since my life was changed Long before these rainy days It's never really ever crossed my mind To turn my back on you, oh Lord My only shelter from the storm But instead I draw closer through these times So I pray
Bring me joy, bring me peace Bring the chance to be free Bring me anything that brings You glory And I know there'll be days When this life brings me pain But if that's what it takes to praise You Jesus, bring the rain
I am Yours regardless of The dark clouds that may loom above Because You are much greater than my pain You who made a way for me By suffering Your destiny So tell me what's a little rain So I pray
I feel like Im a nervous wreck right now, and thought maybe blogging about it might help. Im so worried about the election tonight that I cant even watch as the results come in, I pray from the bottom of my heart that Gods will be done and I know he will take care of it all. I just dont get our nation and why people are voting one way, yet thats why this is called America that we live in. Im not sure that everyone who's voting for Obama has really researched him and what he's all about because if they have they couldnt want him for our president.?.... Its not too late to pray tonight for the results even though the polls are closing, prayer can move mountains!!!
The other thing on my mind that Ive yet to mention on my blog is anything about my infertility issues. We had to have fertitlity treatment to have Sam but deep down know that he was a true blessing from God, "For this child we have prayed and God has granted us our request" Samuel 1:27 Chad and I have been ready and praying for another blessing for another little angel now for a while! I go to the Dr. tomorrow for an ultrasound and hope to get good news, it does look like we are going to have to go down the same road again with fertility meds and other treatments. So I pray that God's will be done in this situation in our lives as well! I know he will take care of it, and we sure would love another little one, Sam keeps asking for a brother or a sister, and its hard to explain to a 4 year old why you cant give that to him! Please say a little prayer for me tomorrow that I will recieve good news at the DR! I will post how it turns out. ~Jennifer
What a fun time we had this Halloween! My little Sam was an Alabama football player! His daddy loved that! For the past 4 years we have spent Halloween with our friends Butch & Paige. Their daughter Emma and Sam have been having play dates since they were itty bitty babes. We first stopped by Maw Maw Daisy's then to Popa and Granny Sue's and then Sam was off to the party at Emma's. They ate mummy dogs & cupcakes and then took a trailer ride around their neighborhood to trick or treat, Sam had a great time, he would hop off the trailer and just run full speed from one house to the next. What fun, I remember those days! He was so tired when he got home but of course not too tired to eat a little candy. We couldnt believe we even got to see Santa at one of the houses we trick or treated! I really cant believe that its already November and Thanksgiving will be here before we no it. I love this time of the year, to see the excitement in Sam makes me so happy, but again its so hard to go through this time without my Paw Paw! Tomorrow is the start of a busy week for me, and Im really getting worried about the election, I just pray that God will send us a Godly leader and the right person will be elected! Hope you enjoy the Halloween pics, untill next time! ~Jennifer