Well we had our consult with Dr Long (infertility dr.) this past monday....and the news was actually very promising!! I had already prepared myself for the worst!! I just knew that we were gonna be told to move on to IVF (and that isnt an option for us due to the $$) Chad and I had already talked and talked about it and knew if that was to be the next step then we knew that this would be the end of our fertility treatments... well Dr. Long started off with of course the results werent great by any means but there had been some new studies out and he felt that we still had optimal chances of becoming pregnant with me doing injections/IUI. When he said that I know I was grinning from ear to ear and immediately my eyes filled with tears. God is just so GOOD. I knew in my heart there was still hope!!! I know your thinking well this still doesnt mean its gonna happen... NO, it doesnt but it does mean we still have options and Dr Long was very positive about it!! Well it just so happened I was at the beginning of my cycle so why not go ahead and start the shots now...so I went in very nervous and anxious at the bottom of the roller coaster, then after talking with Dr. Long, all the way to the top I went!!! I needed to have baseline ultrasound and bloodwork first. Ultrasound done and the nurses response was "OH No"...im thinking WHAT!!!! She said you have a cyst on your ovary the size of TEXAS!! Im thinking REALLY?!?!!? So that in turn meant no shots/IUI this month in fact Im now on birth control pills to help decrease that cyst. Im prayerfully hoping that sucker will be gone by the end of this cycle and we can get on with it. So needless to say I went right back down that roller coaster. Infertility is SO.SO.SO emotional and full of highs and lows. I try not to get my hopes up but its just impossible!!! The past few days Ive been very positive and just feel like God is gonna bless us, i just know it!! I have to keep that faith. Its been about 3 years now and it would be real easy to just give up!! Especially since I do have Sam!! God bleSSed me tremendously with Sam and I just know he can and will do it again. Its in his time I know. He has tested my faith and continues too and this has made me stronger!! I just continue to remind myself of this verse and its very comforting!!
The Lord is near. Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, shall guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. ~Philippians 4:4-9Also it couldnt be at a more perfect time that I have started a new bible study with a great group of girls recently and God knew.... WoW!! did he know how much I needed it and these girls to share with and grow closer with. I had previously started this same study back in the beginning of the summer and it was just at a bad time for me... but God meant for me to finish this study when just a few months down the road I was asked to join in on this same study again. I cant wait to see what it is that God wants to tell me. Cant wait!!!
I thank all of you who have read and continued to follow this journey we are on. I thank you most for the prayers and the comforting and encouraging words you have always offered.
Stay tuned as we continue along to see what God has in store.......
my "johnny appleseed"
sam & ali =)
