{have-a-spook-tacular-weekend}

Hope everyone has a great weekend!! We are gearing up today for lots of fun!! Trunk or treatin with great friends tonight...then tomorrow church and the afternoon at Tate Farms, Flint River invites everyone to go straight to Tate Farms from church for an afternoon of fun at the farm ...then for some more trick or treatin with friends tomorrow night!! Whoo-hoo!! Cant wait to see pics of all of your little goblins and ghouls, be safe =)

While Im Waiting...

Well most of you who read this already know we had another failed IUI this month. Im just ready to blog about it now....Last Tuesday was one of the longest days ever. I had my pregnancy test early that morning but didnt get the results till around 3 that day....it was negative...again! I cried and I cried yet I still felt God's peace. I wont say I didnt question why because thats almost impossible to do. At that moment I just felt like I was done. I couldnt keep going through these emotions month after month. Thanks to some of the best friends ever for such uplifting and encouragement!! God knew exactly that I would need you!! Then after some time passed I knew we had to keep "trudging" on. Chad says he's up for it as long as I am, that he just hates to see me so upset. The next day it was bible study day, perfect day for it!! God still was giving me encouragement to not give up on him to still "be still" and wait. A verse that was shared that day in study again pertained to waiting on the Lord..."Yet the Lord longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the Lord is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him.{Isa.~30:18)
Beth Moore said do not fret, just wait and long.... and thats what Im trying to do.
Friday came and was another let down... I went back to the Dr. for baseline ultrasound and blood work ready to jump right back in for another month of shots and an IUI to find out that I had 4 large cysts that were basically left over from the previous cycle of Follistim and being overstimulated....what a let down! I was ready to keep going but again for whatever reason God's plan is for me to continue waiting. I cant do shots this month due to those cysts, I will be taking birth control pills in hopes they will all go away this month!! I was very frustrated after I left that appointment but again I just have to step back and look at how faithful my God is and always been to me. I am so blessed. I have to be thankful for that and just continue to praise, worship, serve, and love him.... while I'm waiting.
Thought it was funny yesterday that I heard this song... Ive heard it before but its been a long time...it was actually in the movie fireproof. So when I heard it yesterday, it immediately touched me. Its exactly how I feel.....




I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Takeing every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait
Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

a "celebration"

Sam got his first 1st grade report card last week. We have been so proud of him thus far, especially with his progress in reading!! Blows my mind how fast their little minds can catch on!! Anyways, he made all A's!! Whoo-hoo for Sam =) He was beyond proud of himself with every right to be, but when he got in the car that day he said, "mom, we get to have a celebration" and I said, "really, what's the occassion"? Sam replied, " I made all A's and we get to have a celebration" Ha!
So sure enough, we headed out for dinner at Mellow Mushroom (sams favorite pizza place) and then to top that off Krispy Kreme (all of our favorite =). He couldnt wait to show Krispy Kreme his report card and get free doughnuts for his A's!
We are so proud of you Sam, keep up your hard work!!

Fall Break~Overnight Get Away

Since we had to make a trip to Birmingham the week of fall break...we decided to make it a little fun for Sam!! Just a night spent in a hotel completely satisfies him!! Never have I seen a child who loves to stay in a hotel so much!! So, thats what we did, headed down...checked into our hotel, ate at the CHEESECAKE FACTORY, did a little shopping at the Summit and then the next day after my Drs. appointment we headed for a day at the zoo! It was an AwEsOmE day!! We did have to miss out on my favorite... the elephants because they are doing a huge remodel in the Birmingham Zoo and its supposed to be done by the spring. Just another reason for us to go back soon and check it all out =)

Just felt the need to share... "God'sTiming"

Over the last week and half so many different little things happened where it seemed God was making it ever so clear to just be patient & not give up. It first started at my weekly bible study... it was about Gods timing. About waiting upon the Lord. It was as if he was there speaking directly to me!! Tears just streamed down my face, it was amazing!! This was actually last week & it just so happened to be the day after I started my fertility shots, a day that I needed encouragement more than ever and he was right there giving it to me!! (First month of actual fertility meds after taking a break from it for about a year)
Then the next few days everywhere I turned he was there...someone sending me an email on faith with words that were again just like they were meant directly for me!!
It had this prayer in it :
Dear Lord,
You know the hurt in my heart and the sting of disappointments I have experienced. Please help me trust you instead of being consumed by feelings. Empower me with a FAITH that is stronger than my emotions.... In Jesus name, AMEN
I have prayed more this month about all of this than ever before....
Been so thankful for the friends God has sent my way during this time...God knew...just like how the timing of the bible study worked out. Just to get texts and emails that just say im praying for you today!! so thankful for you!!
All of my blood work and ultrasounds prior to IUI were looking GREAT!!
Then the "timing" of the IUI fell on my PawPaw's b-day... to me I immediately thought... WOW what if we were to concieve a baby on his birthday, how AWESOME would that be!! You know how close I was to my PawPaw!!!
We headed down to Birmingham Wed. and had IUI Thurs. Chad went over first to do his part and back to hotel with Sam. Then my turn to go... I felt really good about it. God had given me alot of peace. I was just so ready for it to be done. Well the nurse came in and said Chads count had improved TREMENDOUSLY.... i mean not just a little I mean ALOT!! It was a GOD thing, I mean it had to be. The nurse practicioner said it was GREAT!!! OMGOSH, I was beside myself, when she did the IUI she even said lets pray. God sent her right to me, I know!!!
I had lots of GREAT follicles with 3 great lead ones. Everything seemed so very positive. I have to admit my hopes are very high!! How can they not be?!?!?! Faith!!!! but I keep telling myself, even if it doesnt happen this time, God has answered prayers already about Chads issue and I am so thankful for that. I mean seriously after she did IUI, I had to lay there about 15 minutes, and I couldnt stop crying....Just filled with emotions.... we have worried, tryed to figure out, but most importantly prayed about Chads' issue, where did it come from & why???? and just like that God answered... all of that has been in his time not ours and he is defintely teaching me patience!! and my FAITH, wow... its just becoming stronger and stronger. I know when this finally all comes to pass... what a GOD story I will then have to share!!! We will know soon so please keep the prayers coming!! I appreciate all of you and your prayers more than I could ever express. {LOVE}
Be back soon to share about Fall Break =)

Words that comfort me today

We also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

{Romans 5:3-5}