God never ceases to amaze me and I just wanted to share this God moment with you. It may not seem like a very big deal to you but to me it definitely was. I find myself lately just "craving" (for lack of a better word) another baby! I have good days and through the holidays we were so busy I didnt have time to focus on it so much but now that things are settling into this new year it has been all I can think about lately! 2 nights ago Chad and I were about to go to bed and I just turned to him and said "I want another baby"!! He really doesnt know what to say anymore I dont think!! So he just listens. I ended up crying my self to sleep. Questioning God.... Why?!?!
I know that is so wrong of me. Yesterday morning I check my emails and I have a message from joy
with a sweet email stating she followed this blog and thought of me when she read this most recent post titled beyond our imaginations hoping it would give me some hope. Below are the words from that post that helped me so much that day.....
"I have been feeling somewhat tired in this early stage of pregnancy and also pondered some tough questions as I stated that the reality of another baby is sinking in more and more. We are excited that God is sending another baby into our lives. Yet a big part of me also aches at the same time because I have so many friends and know that lots of people are on a journey of hoping to be where I'm at- expecting a baby- and yet it seems no matter what they try or do or how hard they pray, their journey ends at a "dead-end" time after time. I can't help but feel some of their pain and wonder how God's plan can be trusted when it seems so cold and bleak. Yet I know that God is the Creator of all- from everlasting to everlasting He is God. His timing is always right. His ways are higher. What we find confusing as we walk life's journey so many times turns into something that goes beyond our imaginations as we look back and we can "see" how He in fact did have it all mapped out. Perfectly dependable; totally reliable; Almighty God. I take great comfort in knowing that even when life's path gets bumpy or takes a turn I hadn't planned for, none of it takes God by surprise. He is with us through it all and has our best interest at heart. And He has a BIG heart too!
Maybe you find your own self struggling with something in life right now that seems overwhelming, dark, beyond what you can bear, or simply leaving you without any peace at all. I hope I can be an encouragement to you that God is near and He will see you through. Your journey might not look the way you had imagined it or wish it would look, but God is always in control and when we give our hearts and lives and futures to Him, He promises to make something beautiful out of our offering. That promise gives me peace, joy AND hope! I trust that it does the same for you too!"
You see when I was so down that night, crying myself to sleep. God heard me. Thats no surprise to me...I know he always he hears me. But for him to just show me in this way! At that same moment before I went to bed, Joy sent me that email at 9:55 pm. The same exact time I was crying out to God. And those uplifting encouraging words in that blog was just what I needed to hear. It did give me so much hope! God is Good. I am so thankful that he has brought me in touch with my blogging friends. It has helped me so much through these hard times to hear your encouraging words. Sometimes thats all I need and it turns my day around. Thank you!
I continue to rely and trust in Gods timing. My heart will just not let me give up on having another baby. Sometimes I just pray that God will just let my heart feel content and complete with just Sam so that I can move on past this, but I dont feel that. Thats why Im still waiting and trusting in him, his timing, and his plan.
These things I plan won't happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, wait patiently for it will surely take place. It will not be delayed. Habakkuk 2:3
I know that is so wrong of me. Yesterday morning I check my emails and I have a message from joy
with a sweet email stating she followed this blog and thought of me when she read this most recent post titled beyond our imaginations hoping it would give me some hope. Below are the words from that post that helped me so much that day.....
"I have been feeling somewhat tired in this early stage of pregnancy and also pondered some tough questions as I stated that the reality of another baby is sinking in more and more. We are excited that God is sending another baby into our lives. Yet a big part of me also aches at the same time because I have so many friends and know that lots of people are on a journey of hoping to be where I'm at- expecting a baby- and yet it seems no matter what they try or do or how hard they pray, their journey ends at a "dead-end" time after time. I can't help but feel some of their pain and wonder how God's plan can be trusted when it seems so cold and bleak. Yet I know that God is the Creator of all- from everlasting to everlasting He is God. His timing is always right. His ways are higher. What we find confusing as we walk life's journey so many times turns into something that goes beyond our imaginations as we look back and we can "see" how He in fact did have it all mapped out. Perfectly dependable; totally reliable; Almighty God. I take great comfort in knowing that even when life's path gets bumpy or takes a turn I hadn't planned for, none of it takes God by surprise. He is with us through it all and has our best interest at heart. And He has a BIG heart too!
Maybe you find your own self struggling with something in life right now that seems overwhelming, dark, beyond what you can bear, or simply leaving you without any peace at all. I hope I can be an encouragement to you that God is near and He will see you through. Your journey might not look the way you had imagined it or wish it would look, but God is always in control and when we give our hearts and lives and futures to Him, He promises to make something beautiful out of our offering. That promise gives me peace, joy AND hope! I trust that it does the same for you too!"
You see when I was so down that night, crying myself to sleep. God heard me. Thats no surprise to me...I know he always he hears me. But for him to just show me in this way! At that same moment before I went to bed, Joy sent me that email at 9:55 pm. The same exact time I was crying out to God. And those uplifting encouraging words in that blog was just what I needed to hear. It did give me so much hope! God is Good. I am so thankful that he has brought me in touch with my blogging friends. It has helped me so much through these hard times to hear your encouraging words. Sometimes thats all I need and it turns my day around. Thank you!
I continue to rely and trust in Gods timing. My heart will just not let me give up on having another baby. Sometimes I just pray that God will just let my heart feel content and complete with just Sam so that I can move on past this, but I dont feel that. Thats why Im still waiting and trusting in him, his timing, and his plan.
These things I plan won't happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, wait patiently for it will surely take place. It will not be delayed. Habakkuk 2:3
3 comments:
another great post and inspiring words for all who read them. Thanks for sharing...life has been very hard for me lately...I trust God, I have faith .I know he hears, and I know he cares, but sometimes you need that extra spiritual boost. So timely for me and sounds like for you too. You are blessed and my prayer is that God will give you peace. blessings
Jennifer,
Isn't it so amazing how God sends us what we need when we need it? He heard your prayer and he loves you so much. I just know that he has a plan right now and although it doesn't make any sense right now, it will someday. In the meantime, I hope these two verses can speak to your heart:
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
"But those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." Isaiah 40:31
I'm praying for you!
Amy
God is sooo good... Thanks for sharing this & know that I am remembering you (& Chad & Sam) in my prayers.
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