My baby will soon be 5 years old :(

Yesterday Sams birthday present (a wooden swing set) from Chad and I was delivered to our house. Even though his b-day isnt until next Wed. it worked out great that it came early beacuse the weather is supposed to be rainy for the next several days and they may not have been able to get it set up. So I took him to my moms yesterday after preschool because I didnt want him to come and see it until they were completely done.When he got home yesterday afternoon about 5:30 they were still working on it and believe me it was very hard keeping him from going outside until it was finished, by that time he had an idea what was going on because he had been asking us for a swing set. He had one at our old house and he has missed it so much! So anyways what a great surprise it was for him and the weather was great so we stayed outside till dark and played! Sam loves his new swing set and was so upset this morning when he saw that it was raining :( Looks like he's gonna be a busy little boy playing outside this spring.
On the other hand I am having a hard time dealing with the fact that my little Sam is about to be 5 years old.Not a baby, not a toddler not even a preschooler for much longer. He's so big now, where has the time gone. I cant believe he will be starting to kindergarten this fall. He's learning so much.... how to read, and Mr Independent..... he has so many little friends, the best personality ever, and is so loving! At least he does still let me hold him and snuggle with him. And to just think what I was feeling at this time 5 years ago.I had struggled to get pregant for quite a while, God blessed us, and I was finally preparing to meet this sweet little baby boy who would change my life forever! Truly a blessing from God.

We had an appointment yesterday with Dr Long and he has recomended that we take a rest break this next month before I start on the Follistim shots. I told Chad I am gonna do my very best to not think about any of the infertility issues. Over the next month we will have alot going on with Sam's T-ball getting started, his b-day, spring hopefully around the corner, my b-day, our anniversary. Wow, we are gonna be busy! So maybe not taking any fertility meds and going back and forth to the Dr. will be a good break for us all, maybe even what we need right now. Im seeing more and more everyday how important it is that I quit worrying about it and leave it to God. Thank you to all of my blogging friends new and old for the encouraging words. I know God has brought us together, because alot of us have been down this same road at one time or another, and he knows we need each other!!

Sorry such a long post today, guess I just had a lot to say :)

~Jennifer