This whole week Ive just been down, just over the whole not being able to get pregnant..... I knew it was probaly coming to this, I went through the same thing with Sam, but there was just hope and prayers that we wouldnt have to go down this road again. Everyone may be tired of hearing me talk about it, but it just helps to vent a little! And again I know how truly blessed I am to have Sam, I could be like others who are unable to ever have children! So today, my drs. office called in another prescription of my infertility med. and off we go, another cycle, another month that I will pray to God that it will be his will for it to happen this month!!!
My nurse told me today that Dr. Ru thinks if not pregnant this month, then Im off to the ART program again, which is in Birmingham and that is where we went to get help with getting Sam here! The most frustrating thing this time is that my progesterone levels are much much higher than they were, and its still not happening!
Some people have said to me are you sure you want to go through this again, after all that I went through to get Sam (it was very complicated), others say to me just be thankful for Sam ( believe me I AM SO THANKFUL, he is such a blessing and I love him with all my heart) I just feel that I am meant to be a mommy again!!!! Right now I wish I could truly say and mean it, "well if we dont get pregnant again, its ok I have Sam" but I just dont feel that, I want Sam to have a brother or sister so bad!
Ok, I know thats enough, Im going on and on, but like I said, I just needed to vent a little! Please dont think Im sounding selfish....... I really dont want to sound that way!
Please keep us in your prayers, that what is meant to be, whatever Gods will be for us, that it will be and I will have strength, and faith to deal with it all!