Heard this song below "things that matter" for the first time today and thought what a great message. I dont know about you but it seems the days for me seem to be going by faster and faster. Sometimes I know I get wrapped up worrying about things that really dont matter. I have and awesome God who forgives me for all my sins and is always there for me, such a wonderful husband, the sweetest cutest little boy I could have ever imagined, a wonderful family and great friends!
Even though I seem to get caught up in the daily struggle of wanting to be pregnant again so bad, I still have so much to be thankful for. In the end the blessings that Ive been given are the things that matter.
Today I've been going through the motions, was cleaning out closets and of course doing alot of thinking. Does God really want me to have another child??? I want Sam to have a sibling so bad.... I feel myself getting jealous of friends that have 2 or more children and I see the relationships their children have and then I have to tell myself stop, I cant have those feelings.Im also worried about the cost of all the fertility treatments, money these days doesnt go anywhere, and Im real scared to just deplete our savings while trying to have another baby and still make ends meet. As a stay at home mom, I have been so blessed and thankful that Ive been able to stay at home but it scary to think about all the treatments and expense that continues to arise with all the fertility treatments, dr. visits...... Maybe Chad and I should just say forget it, going through this roller coaster ride isnt so much fun! Maybe we should just spend our time focusing on what we've already been blessed with. So, I'll think Ok Im gonna talk to Chad, maybe we'll just call the fertility battle quits and I just wont have this to worry about anymore, then a few minutes later, Im thinking NO, I cant do that, my heart longs for another baby.... I dont want Sam to be an only child. SO you see where Ive been going today, back and forth..... then I hear this new song by rascal flatts, "things that matter" and I just felt the need to share my feelings today. Im sure some of you may get tired of hearing this same ol story, but its what Im going through and its such a struggle and it helps so much to just get it out sometimes! I just dont want to miss out on my time with "things that matter" because Im so stressed, so worried, and so caught up in this "struggle". Please Lord give me strength to be patient and wait on your will and your timing Lord.
Just wanted to share the song/lyrics with you, dont forget to pause my playlist.
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